i am serious.



I miss everyone in my life. Ebrg, it seems like I left years ago. It hasn't even been a month.

a few days ago ben and I went to the park near my house. It goes to the beach, and there is an orchard. beautiful day.

newest things with me:
living at 103 N 79th Seattle, WA 98103

Work:
i had a canvassing job. it sucked for the whole day that i worked there, then i had to quit, because the attorney general and the secretary of state were going to prosecute their asses for soliciting w/o a license. so now i am jobless. and with endless amounts of free time, but no money, and no friends.
today I applied at a fancy restaurant... lets hope.

Home:
My roomies are great. they are relatively tidy. everyone is really nice. and I have yet to have a single bit of drama come my way. so living situation is very fantastic. also, my rent is super cheap. also great. there are several bars in walking distance, there is a billion restaurants, and there is an adorable little breakfast place a block away that is called pete's egg nest, and its reputably good.

anyways. i am famished. and i am going to go fry up some progees.

i just got done talking to the lovely Miss. white in the financial aide department, and she confirmed that my financial aide will not be altered due to one quarter of poor grades. As long as I pass all of my classes next quarter, which I will because it is my last, I am in the clear.

i also like the unconventional way of looking at college and being able to say FUCK MY GPA. it does bring a smile to my face.


I ALSO LIKE drunk messages. and texts i cannot respond to. and seeing lura unexpectedly in the sub.


this quarter just got better. and better.

if i say i like a boy again will you comment?

so that i can stop gushing about my life to the same four people over and over!!! seriously, it must be bombarding to see it on lj, facebook, and have to hear it.

but, damnit, im so happy!

also, i have a crush. who crushes on me, i do believe. which i think makes it more than a crush? well, yeah. i guess at this point.. its more than a crush. but okay.

i would write more, but i feel like a child writing silly lj posts of the sort. so. and i must run home anyways.




more later

I LOVE MY NEW APARTMENT!!! its great. i never want to leave it. im always late now.

i love lura. she has brought nothing but tremendous amounts of goodness to my life in a time when i desperately need it. same goes to colin & tristen, but they never raped babies and little girls so that was expected. :D

i came clean with tyson about how i accidentally knocked over one of his really old projects. and he was totally cool about it. he refused to take money for the damage; he said he appreciated me telling him, because if he had done the same he wouldn't have ever said a thing. Surprise of the week: being morale doesn't always suck.


i have to go back to Randall hall now. my plaster project is waiting.


also. fuck.

that was a great weekend guys.

i just realized that adorable man that smiles at me everyday when he gets his coffee is mustachio....!!!!!!


*gasp*

slura, we're going to have to mudwrestle over this one. ;)

...

actually you can have him. you saw him first fo' sho'.

Im finally moving out and i cant wait. this weekend im going to seattle and for that i cant wait as well. Im finally over my stress rut and i feel great again. january is always so difficult.

i just successfully made a twitter rant. not possible you say? totally possible!

and in only 140 characters exactly, i have stated the current status of my living situation which has put me through so much stress this year of 2009 and continues to do so:



jessicaque oldlandlord says he didn't mean to evict me & wants me to stay. i think about this, and then decide on eating healthfood. tough shit old guy 8 minutes ago from web




how do you accidentally evict someone?

good news:
starting my wrapped object tomorrow;
finishing my elephant tonight;
i had a ridiculous and fun weekend;
im still sleeping on my couch due to fear of eating a spider (or a spider eating me);
i am eating lots of health foods;
i will be fake-vegetarian for a while;
i move out in 9 days;
i move in in 10.5 days;
and i may still have enough money for a computer after all? well see.



ps. If you could have one celebratory drink right now (in the middle of inauguration day) what might it be?

now we're all inside eachothers heads...

im having too much fun; its actually starting to kill me. WOOO!
life is good. last night we went to safeway, but i think we were obvious? or was it just me in my silent paranoia?

SORRY! rocks. i want to play more, but with some beer, so that we will really get competetive. we were to chill last night.... we were like oh, sorry ? except colin, colin was like

SORRRY MUTHAFUCKAH!!!

i need somemore energy, social sitation i keep finding myself being too laid back. garrrrrr. what does it take to wake me up? im gunna go buy another keroac book.



lura, is it weird that now we are more than lj friends?
i hope not.


right on, now im gunna go have a sober sunday, so that maybe ill be more energetic.



uspinmeroundbaby,round,right round....like a recordbabyrightroundroundround

i got my 20-days notice on the 10th (for no real reason)
i panicked for 3 days
found a significantly better apt on the 12th
they called me on the 13th
i signed the lease today. (14th)

i'm behind in all of my classes because of the last two days. garrrr. (eventhough the last week or so has been tremendous fun)

now i have to pack, get rid of my large-scale items, and move all of my stuff by the 30th.

i cant move into my new place till afternoon on the 31st.

.humph.

ummmm this math means: i have 16 days. ooooooooh my.

also, sculpture is hard.

good stuff: my new place is amazing, my new landlord is really sweet, my life is mostly coming together, and i keep meeting new people everyday.

EDIT: i worked on my clay sculpture of a stuffed elephant and now i smell like clay!!!! beating out my stress on clay is good, i can't wait for plaster! :D

neal cassedy has read my mind.
its making me crazy with madness.
im so excited its exhausting and no one else see it like this.
this book will ruin my life.
but its making me see life for what it is.
holy shit. i dont know what to do with myself.


i miss having people understand me.
i really miss having a friend that just gets it.
wavelengths are different now.



rawr! every one live like this!




lodon fogs (made right) are ruling my life too.





sunday was one of the more epic days of my break. i cant chroniclize it the way we used to chronicalize everything on lj. but, it was fantastic. i love tristen and colin. individually, and together. itsgreat to be with people that are good to be around. it makes my madness satisfying.
i love people that get it.
(ps thank you tristen for having me over, i still havent found my debit card; ill get a new one and buy you guys something nice).

i am totally trying to avoid my take home final.
take home stuff is always harder than in class stuff.
i spend hours making sure that im right, and im not always right even then!
tax is for losers. i hate the IRC. it is evil.

i am doing good.
pay day is tomorrow, which means


LOTS OF BEER FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! until i cant walk. im serious.
i gotta drown the past week out of existence.
then ill relive 2006 with some wine and jagger bombs on saterday
and sunday (maybe) levenworth.

i need something amazing right now.


hm.





****RANT*******

AND BAH HUMBUG TO THE DUMB MOTHERFUCKERS THAT COMPLAIN ABOUT LIGHTS, SNOWFLAKES AND GARLANDS in the SUB!!!!!!!!! YOU BITCHES NEED TO SEE THAT THOSE ARE CHEERFUL NON RELIGIOUS DECORATIONS, THEY MAKE ME HAPPY AND I HAVE TO BE HERE THROUGH CHRISTMAS EVE!!! SO LEAVE MY DAMN DECORATIONS ALONE!
****end*******


i have weekends of for the rest of the month. i will be going to seattle to drink and see my loved ones. traci, i will call you soon. just need somemore time and beer to get me through this week first.

-ps amy, i dont think very highly of fuzzy navel, but im glad you like it, it makes you a cheap date, and i enjoy smoking with you.

i hate doing school stuff.
i also hate the library (its always packed)
i hate parts of my family (the parts where they are just not nice)

i love my little sisters(and their accidental rasicst remarks)
i love this time of year (even if it makes me cold)
i love that i cut my living expenses in half (which means i dont eat anymore ! its like a diet?!)

wish i could by more food. my leftovers went bad already (turkey doesnt hold well in a car for four hours)



ah well.
thats what i get for trying to eat for free.

anxious! ah!

i dont know why.
really, really, anxious!

i can't say anything that i want to say.
the mormons gave me a paper today that said the dead will rise again, if they are buried in memorial tombs. but until then they are dead and unconscious of all.

when i die, bury me without preservatives. please. i dont want to rise again... ugh!

i want to get up and go. and not always feel like i'm about to lose something. its nerve racking. maybe ill loose my nerves. thats all.


also,
i need another job. i finally got introuble for working more than the legal amount of on campus hours.

rawr!

living for music right now.

i am happy.

www.knittaplease.com


:D

i found my old fruit t-shirt that is pink blue green yellow and white and all of the fruit are wrong colors except for the banana. i love rediscovering clothes. also, i love wearing vests. need to buy me something ever? get me an awesome vest or sweater vest or corderouy (because i love corderouy) or knit vest. i love vests.


anyways.

i got drunk this afternoon, then i went into work drunk to find out they didn't need me there! awesome! so then i listened to band of annuals (playing in the pitt) and saw peoples. ran into rusty, (!yey!) and went to the library cause he is studying and promised to take my drunk ass home with him when he is done.... so here i am.


i have an adv. bus. law exam tomorrow. and i dont care.



ALSO




what i was originally going to write about:


MY HEATER HAS A CARBON MONOXIDE LEAK! and so i am getting a new one. my gas has been turned off until there is anew unit installed. and so i have to live at rusty's till all of this is solved. phooie. but not so phooie. cause i like mr. mann.and staying there too.


i am having a fun and busy week. tomorrow there is OKTOBERFEST @ IRONHORSE brwery and i plan on going there and drinking.
yes.


yes yes yes...... soooooooooo.... i love lj.

i had fun hanging out with jennae @ the tav this afternoon.



and this is a long long long post.

g'nite

Earnings and Profits calculations = complicated

my life = not

even though,

$$$$ = not much

I am hungry and poor.

That's okay with me. I want to take more pictures.




I am looking for another job (to cover the winter months heating bill) any help in this search is much appreciated. i am maxed out on hours @ dining. and I have free afternoons and evenings (since the guy i like is quite a busy man).

today i drew my face.

This year is off to an okay start. actually, i am really happy with things in general. i miss everyone terribly, which is why i can't wait till friday (traci's birthday) when i will be drinking with good people. Ellensburg is as quaint as ever, (because i wasn't here all summer) and it has been really pretty the last few weeks (although, it could be a little colder). i got my job offer contract in the mail yesterday. i am going to take it. live in seattle next year. and ride the train to work everyday. about this i am pretty happy. and nervous.

it's weird to feel good about everything when everyone else in my life is stressed out and/or unhappy. not everything is good for me either. i have no financial aide yet. (not even any fafsa) and i found out the loan i was gettin is not certified by the school. and all of the banks certified by the school wont give loans w/o a cosigner cause of the current economic situation.


even so. i am happy. i love my new little apartment. i love that i cant figure out how to turn on the heater (cause it is saving me money). i love that i have a cute bike (even though it is comepletely broken still). i love that work is not so damatic this year. i love the people i have been getting to spend more time with.

any way.




i always like this time of year. i hope everyone gets a bit of that feeling soon.

was offered to me about 1/2 an hour ago...



hm.... it is seriously something to think about.


and i am pretty happy about it.

:D